The blogging world had changed A LOT since I joined it. When I started, there wasn’t really much money in it, brands thought we were a joke and zoella was just a girl behind a screen who showed you what she bought from primark.
Now it’s full of professional cameras and full time bloggers and sponsored posts and high tech equipment. As the blogging world has changed, so have we. We’ve been advancing and upgrading and making ourselves and our blog better.
But has it gone too far?
When I started I simply used my iPod and that was fine. Perfect actually. It took grainy photos and I only owned rimmel lipsticks but that was okay. I loved it.
Now I’ve upgraded to the LUMIX DZ200 and I pay for my host on my blog and I collaborate with brands. It’s insane how far I’ve come.
But at the same time, I don’t feel good enough. I feel more like this than I did when I first started blogging.
I think one reason why I feel like this is because there’s more people to please. When I used my iPod touch I only had 200 followers and it wasn’t so much pressure. Now there’s 15,000+ of you and THAT IS SO MANY TO PLEASE.
Another reason is because in this sea of every growing talented people, I feel like a little fish in a VERG big pond. I feel like in the sea of bloggers, what’s so special about my blog? So many people use more expansive equipment and pay photographers for photo shoots. And I’m just here, still sitting in my bedroom writing posts.
It’s hard. One week I’m so happy with my blog and I’m giving myself a pat on the back, while others I’m getting upset over it not being good enough.
How do you feel about this? Am I being crazy or are more of you feeling the same way?